dont let me forget

So, today I spent the whole day on a “second” interview with M.A.X.I.S. consulting group. turns out, its basically door to door sales, in a year i could be making a lot. But I really dont think its something i want to do. a friend told me a position at her att sales store is opening up, which i think i would really enjoy. Im living with Jer and Sue now, which is really freakin awesome! jer and I quit IMS, and are working for bjs painting crew with little tiny baby zack ramsey, its a blessing to have that, we both also have a couple side projects for dare to live. hahaha today when we made a sale (the only sale out of 80 places we visited) i made a connection for a video jab. kind of funny. Please continue to pray for God direction and will in my life, its a pretty rough time, but God does what He does

 Gods been giving me a cooler testimony (thats one way to put it). I’ve really been pressing into The Lord more, He’s been revealing so much more of who He is, like how truly interpersonal He is, I’ll be driving, and He just makes me laugh so hard, The Spirit is moving in ways I’ve never seen before, at the end of May, I was really asking God to stretch my faith, hahaha, you see, one thing I’ve always known about Our Great God, He’s got a great sense of Humor, because not only did he stretch my faith where I asked, He’s stretching it everywhere else. I wanted to seek God in the supernatural, things you only hear about, miracles, healing, prophecy, I thought that wasn’t for me to do or experience, I’d always been skeptical because of people like Benny Hinn, people of cultic or sketchy doctrine who have twisted the Gospel of Jesus.  I asked God to break my skepticism, to show me Himself for who He is. He has been showing me not only that, but so much more, one of which being that we all have the same source. Jer showed me a movie called “The Finger of God” a while back, it has blessed me so much, and the cool thing was is that it was coming from the same perspective as i have been, never seeing it or understanding it, to beginning a new chapter in my journey with God. God is so amazing! Well, a week or so after being sick of having a dry faith, complaining about where my walk was and telling The Lord “I want to KNOW. YOU.” ….. I got laid off. a bit scary, knew it was time to leave that church a while ago, but i didn’t know where i would go. a week after that, I find out that my moms house, where i and a couple friends had been renting (she had not been living there)is being sold, I have to be out this friday. still no job at that point. Dave Cole calls me with a job offer, long story short, i take it while getting Jer a job there also. not knowing what we were walking into, we started working at an electronics recycling warehouse. “I started thursday before last” I barely made it through today, my strength is so depleted, I’ve been extremely positive, and Joyful, i have very little worry, God has been miraculous in His provision. My heart is heavey, I’m so tired, I don’t know if im going to make my bills because it doesnt pay well, i’ve been selling alot of stuff. My head phone jack in my ipod got messed up last week, that thing has become my life source/musical link to God at this place, listening to Worship grooving, dancing, singing….etc. Jer let me borrow his mp3 player today, I just listened to sermon after sermon, nearly 10 hours in all today while working. i don’t know how i would have made it without. Im just tired, I’ve got a wonderful girl who has been helping me along the way and standing by me, its humbling for sure, I haven’t been able to find a decent job yet. It’s hard when you think you have your agenda. Jordyn and I plan on getting married next september, i really want to be able to have a job and afford a place to live before hand. Gosh… its such a weird feeling to have Joy in The Lord, feel close to Him, but be so drained and tired and ready to quit. I was listening to Leeland “tears of the saints” toward the end of my shift, all day, i just wanted to weep. And God said to me, “Hold on, You. Are. Precious.” wow, tears were ready to pour. I’ve always heard pastors and teachers say, “God thinks your Precious, He loves you!” I’ve Never heard God say it so clearly, wow, incredible. I feel lost, confused, frustrated, upset. but not at all at the same time. I know God is at work. (i’d really like to find a different crappy temp job while im holding on though)

God is an amazing God. He has so much for us. There is so much more to life then just what this decietful world offers. God loves us, God Loves you so much. God Bless You. My friends, draw closer, persue hard after God as he is persuing you. Thank Him for today.

Be light in the world today, Be Blessed.

David Sorrell

I already am holding it for someone else…..
Good Day Oregon is my favorite…
dang.